Wednesday, 30 November 2022

12:43 and still on motorways




I remember the name of the girl
who used to take the red-eye bus to
Slimelight. One night,
I met her in town and she told me her system
of pills and when to drop them and of
grabbing sleep on busses and of 
doing it all the next weekend,

and she never said the name of the guy
but I knew, and months later I had it
confirmed from her ex when we dated
(a little), and again from someone who
assumed I was new to the scene

and required the talk.

Tuesday, 29 November 2022

Meanwhile, in Moscow



 
'Dammit, Billings,' Hartford groused as he sat down and opened the styrofoam, 'I thought you were joking when you said to meet here.'
'Why would I joke?' I replied. 'This is it, Hartford. This is what we've been working towards. Big Macs in Red Square, baby! This is it. Be unpatriotic to eat anywhere else.'
'Heh. You sound like a media asset we're developing. He's crazy about these places too. But he's a complete idiot, only good for propaganda work. You've always been sharp - '
'And I still am. None of the old-school kegebishniki come here, none of the nomenklatura either, and it's too proley for the oligarchs, whether we're developing them or not. It's too noisy to bug effectively and I never use the same table. This, Hartford, is the safest damn place in this country. Relax. Or are you just annoyed at not getting to eat caviar on Langley's dime?'
He bristled, but then a sly smile began forming at the corners of his mouth. 'If that's what you're concerned with you may want to start packing some caviar.' With that, he sat back and took a big bite of his burger.
'What?' 
You would've thought the burger was caviar, the amount of time Hartford spent savoring it before replying. 'I've been sent here to inform you that you're being reassigned.'
'The Hell I am! We are at a very fucking delicate stage of this shit, Hartford, I am developing people who are going to be instrumental in...'
'Tell it to Gates, Billings. Tell it to Poppy. I'm just the messenger.'
'That serious?'
'Orders from on high, Billy. You're to get things squared away and be ready to hand over your assets to Ames in - '
'Ames? Ames? Are you fucking shitting me, Hartford?'
'Ames is a longstanding member of the Soviet team...'
'Ames is a fucking drunk, Hartford, and you and I both know it. He would be an absolute disaster as my replacement...'
'Sounds like someone's grown a little attached to their posting.'
'You're talking about putting everything we've been working towards since the Company was fucking founded in the hands of some goddam theater fag who can't even drink straight, Hartford. You sound like someone who's forgotten - '
'And you sound like someone who vastly overestimates his importance in affairs. Babysitting a drunk and a taxi driver isn't exactly the Bay of Pigs.'
'Oh you think so? You think these people are going to greet Ames' Chicago pals as liberators when they come in here and start privatising everything that isn't nailed down and most of what is? These people killed their fucking Czar, Hartford. These people burned down half their country to fuck up Napoleon and did the same to Hitler a hundred years later. This babysitter has to run a fucking spreadsheet to keep track of which members of the football team she needs to blow to stop this thing exploding in our faces. If you think Ames is...'
'I DON'T THINK, BILLINGS,' Hartford erupted with such force the entire restaurant was momentarily silent. He gestured apologetically to one of the janitors and continued more quietly 'I do my fucking job. And so will you. Ours not to reason fucking why. You have two weeks. Get things squared away for Ames to take over, then you're flying to London.'
I must have looked shocked, because I saw that smile flash across his lips again. That fucking snake.
'Why...'
'You get much news of the UK here?'
'We know Princess Di is turning into a bull dagger and dating some bisexual homo...'
'You're all fucking charm Billings, you know that?'
'Sorry, honey, we didn't all get to go to the Ivies.' I shouldn't have put it like that, really, but I wanted to see something on his face other than that fucking smirk. 'What the fuck is happening in Britain?'
'Well, that's the question, isn't it? Seems some Tory choirboy decided to read a few details about one of Maggie's pederast pals into the Parliamentary record and it's all bloody kicked orf, as they say. Riots in the streets, British troops sent to fight Saddam beating up their brass and going AWOL, big swings to Labour...'
'I thought we had them pretty much stitched up again?'
'Well, we did, but that Welsh prick is tainted by association with some of the same fucking people, turns out. And some guy from Woy's spoiler party has just been exposed as a massive pervert too, so they're tanking. Lot of people are talking up the Scotsman.'
'The guy with the eye?'
'No, not him. Smith.'
I said nothing for a moment. 'So that's why they want me back?'
Hartford nodded. 'The thinking at Langley is that while rapprochement with Ivan would be nice, shoring up the old special relationship takes priority.'
'Plus you want this nipped in the bud before some of our perverts start getting outed, right?'
'Don't even joke about that.'
I sucked on my coke, loudly, for a moment. 'Fine, then. Two weeks, then England, and Ames can come over here and fuck everything up. Which he will, by the way.'
'Yeah, well, ours not to...'
'...reason fucking why, yeah, I know,' I sighed. 'Fuck it. There's a place near here with amazing vodka and a very creative approach to receipts. Let's go get drunk on Langley's dime.'
'Yeah, what the Hell,' Hartford stood up and stretched. 'There's no way we can cost more than Ames.' 

Sunday, 27 November 2022

The Tiny Hands of Meryl Streep



The tiny hands of Meryl Streep:
toward your silent form they creep
intent on fucking up your sleep,
and when you wake? 'Get in the jeep!'
is what you'll hear from Meryl Streep.

The tiny hands of Meryl Streep
are on the wheel of Meryl's jeep,
painted with the flag of Mozambique,
but why? You'd ask, except you cannot speak:
the tiny hands of Meryl Streep

have gagged you so you cannot shriek.
Why is she here? What does she seek?
At best, they still remain oblique,
the motives of Ms Meryl Streep

in dropping by your place this week
to show off her attack technique
and surprisingly puissant physique.
Eventually Meryl Streep

tells you the hole you've dug is deep
enough. 'Now as ye sowed, so shall ye reap,'
the sonorous tones of Meryl Streep 

inform you that it's time to sleep.
'Is it possible - ' you meekly squeak,
but the tiny hands of Meryl Streep 

have closed around her father's antique 
Derringer: so ends your streak,
at the tiny hands of Meryl Streep.

Friday, 25 November 2022

An Albian Poem

We realised our parks were built on corpses;
we realised sober men had lied
when, knowingly, they amplified
the voices of the monsters 
we were led to reckon saints;
we realised the misers of our bodies
had made those bodies alien to us,
and took them back so we could give
them freely for the first time in far more
than living memory; we realised that
to stay was suffocation: we realised
that getting out would hurt,

and we made the break anyway. Realised
a different way of being in the world.
We saw the Power that we had been
and the nation that we could be
and the sweetness of the wallow
we'd enjoy in waxwork replicas of all our
glory days: and we did not wallow,
and we did not run away. 



Thursday, 17 November 2022

Riot Cops in Roundhay Park: remembering the Savile Wars

 There's this memory I have, of my childhood. It's October 1990, and it's cold. Cold enough that I have to put on a jacket when I go outside to play with the other kids in my street after watching that night's episode of Doctor Who. The serial that month was, you'll recall, 'Lungbarrow', the first six-part serial since 'The Armageddon Factor' and a historic milestone in the programme's history. I'm still thinking of the first episode cliffhanger when I notice that our street sign has been damaged, probably by a car, and absentmindedly kick it. 


In my head I am recreating a frame from Frank Miller and David Mazuchelli's Batman: Year One, which I had recently received as a birthday present due to my absolute obsession with Tim Burton's 1989 Batman adaptation. In the eyes of an elderly woman passing by, however, I am clearly engaged in a wanton act of vandalism against a sign which, before I set about it with my Bruce Lee tactics, was completely intact. I am harangued for my alleged crime until I decide I have had enough and go back inside. It's a small, inconsequential memory, but it looms larger in my mind as the last memory I have of things during my teens being normal. 

The memory cheats, of course, to use John Nathan-Turner's favourite expression. It's not as if everything went mad the next day: Geoffrey Howe didn't resign, and read the details of what Thatcher knew about what Jimmy Savile had done into the Parliamentary record, until a week later. But I daresay things probably happened to all those wistful Edwardians between their Sunday afternoons in the park and the assassination of Archduke Ferdinand. Like those memories, my image of myself being hectored by a censorious old woman who has no idea what's really going on is what Eliot would call an objective correlative for the years that would follow, and the attitudes that those years would displace. 

Similarly freighted images were already forming in front of the cameras on the night that Howe made his speech. Angry mobs in Scarborough and Leeds rioted, spurred to attack Savile's local associates, or animated by rumours that he himself had been sighted somewhere in town. The sight of riot police beating people back from approaching Savile's Roundhay Park flat stayed with many: an image of the establishment protecting its own. 



I guess they must have stayed in the memories of the soldiers stationed in Saudi Arabia to fight Saddam, who started mutinying. The fragging didn't start until April the following year, but the number of troops going AWOL or being disciplined for insubordination began almost immediately. Of course we now know how much Savile's own attitudes had - well, there is no other word for it - penetrated the military at that point, though it shouldn't have surprised us. He was always keen to be photographed with squaddies. 

And royalty. Prince Dai pointed out the links between Savile and the Windsors in a Christmas interview with the Daily Express, but was careful, then, to stick to what was public knowledge - the close friendship between Charles Windsor, Savile and Louis Mountbatten, for example. More would follow next year after he left Charles, began transitioning, and started dating Freddie Mercury. But I don't think I would have even been very aware of this that Christmas, though I did notice the BBC pulled almost all new light entertainment programming from its festive schedules that year, replacing them with repeats - including, to my delight, a few classic Who serials. 

We learned about Cliff Richard's suicide on the Christmas night news. Well, I suppose I should say overdose. There are those who still genuinely believe it was accidental, that Clean-livin' Cliff had a genuine medical need to have a lethal quantity of barbiturates around the house, and that he simply screwed up and clumsily took all the pills at once instead of the one or two he'd presumably been prescribed. 




The arrests began around New Year. Hall, Travis, Davidson, Harris, Glitter, Greer, and so on through the early months of '91. Along with the Birmingham Six being freed and the Hillsborough inquiry recording an open verdict it all added to a steady erosion of authority. 'What right do these people have to govern us?' was the question more and more people were asking. And that question got a lot louder when Prime Minister Heseltine announced that British troops would be withdrawn from the Gulf at the request of French and US forces who were sick of having to deal with disorder among British units, then promptly resigned. 

We were on our third Prime Minister in less than a year, and the open grumbling about whether or not the Tories could be said to have a mandate turned into full rebellion in the summer of 1991 as riots broke out in cities throughout Britain and the Sun offices were firebombed. Perhaps hoping to ease the pressure by introducing an electoral safety valve, John Major announced an election to be held in April 1992, as well as an official inquiry into the breakdown of order among British troops during the Gulf War. 

A year after I watched the first episode of 'Lungbarrow', the country had changed significantly, but it was still recognisable as the same place I had grown up in, even if I now knew that many of the people I had been told to admire as a child were the vilest kind of criminal, and people in authority had known and done nothing or, worse, colluded in their crimes. That was a lot to deal with, especially on top of First Puberty. But it was nothing compared to what was going to happen. 



Tuesday, 15 November 2022

Albia Eruditorum: Time and the Rani

 (Because adding 'with apologies to Elizabeth Sandifer' at the end probably won't cut it: as regular readers of this blog will be aware, I am currently working on a book of poems set in an alternate Britain which developed in a way which makes it less disabled by nostalgia than our own. One key feature of this alternate timeline is that Jeremy Brett, rather than Colin Baker, replaces Peter Davison as the Doctor, and Andrew Cartmel takes over as Script Editor a couple of years early, resulting in Lungbarrow being made for television and the British as a whole becoming less hung up on reproductive futurism. It thus proved irresistible to write at least one entry about this alternate Britain [which I am calling 'Albia' as a working label] as a pastiche of a TARDIS Eruditorum entry [indeed the opening paragraph is a straight lift from Sandifer's essay on The Twin Dilemma, lightly edited to remove the reference to 'Doctor in Distress', as the Hiatus never occurs in the Albian timeline, and to tidy up the rhythm of the paragraph after cutting out a large chunk of it]. Needless to say it would be a pale imitation of the original even if it weren't about a version of a serial which never actually aired in the timeline we inhabit, and you should all go and read the original, and Last War in Albion and Neoreaction: a Basilisk too. All three works have been a massive influence on the current project.)


 

It is January 5th, 1985. Band Aid are at number one with "Do They Know It's Christmas". They remain at number one throughout this story, with Wham! at number two with another Christmas song. Foreigner, Madonna, Paul McCartney, Tears for Fears, and Ray Parker Jr. are also in the charts, the last, of course, with the theme from Ghostbusters.

In news, since we last looked at a story the Miners' Strike has reached a conclusion, rioting breaks out in Wolverhampton, David Jenkins is appointed Bishop of Durham, to the despair of conservative Christians, and the IRA succeed in bombing the Brighton hotel where many top Conservative politicians are staying for that party's annual conference: though they fail to kill anyone they succeed in injuring Margaret Thatcher so severely she has to spend the rest of her time as PM in a wheelchair. This has two consequences for her: the first is, once the initial wave of sympathy dies down and politics-as-usual reasserts itself, a rash of cartoons and tabloid front covers depicting her as Davros, which would never see print today. The second, much more sinister consequence is that Jimmy Savile starts spending a lot more time at 10 Downing Street, showing the Prime Minister the same 'care and attention' he lavished on disabled children at Stoke Mandeville. 

Incidentally, in the wake of the attack, the IRA taunt Thatcher with the statement 'you have to be lucky every time. We only have to be lucky once', a statement which later becomes popular on the Internet as an inspirational quote misattributed to Thatcher herself. History is weird like that. 

And speaking of history being weird, on television: Time and the Rani. The main line of criticism of this episode is that the Rani doesn't get much of a backstory, and that introducing a new enemy in the same story where the Doctor regenerates is too much to expect that story to do. Which can be easily refuted by pointing at the Pertwee era, specifically of course the fact that the Autons get introduced in Pertwee's first outing, and the fact that we get laughably little backstory on the Master in 'Terror of the Autons' beyond the fact that he's a bad guy and the Timelords need the Doctor's help to stop him. But actually it can be refuted even more easily than that: it can be refuted by the fact that this episode does it. 

And it does it in a way that achieves both goals: the Doctor and the Rani's verbal sparring (once the Doctor recovers enough from his post-regeneration/post-TARDIS attack amnesia and realises the Rani is only pretending to be Peri) is used both to introduce the Rani and to establish the character of Jeremy Brett's Doctor. What's interesting is how sympathetic the Rani is in this exchange, with Brett's Doctor giving his lines a tone of sneering condescension towards his intellectual rival, and never allowing the audience to entirely take comfort in the idea that the Doctor is doing this only to get a reaction. Compared with the Fifth Doctor's almost pathological niceness this is a thrilling change, and one which helps establish the tone throughout Brett's tenure. From his earliest meetings with Cartmel and Nathan-Turner about taking the role, Brett had stressed that he wanted to play up the Doctor's nature as an alien disguising himself as a human, and he felt that, as he put it 'in an exchange with another creature of his kind the Doctor would naturally cast off the affectations he puts on in dealing with Earth people - the sight of the Doctor being so obviously de haut en bas towards his equal ought to leave audiences less sure if the way he treats, for example, Peri is true kindness or mere condescension.' 

And that gets at another strength of the episode, which is how it helps strengthen Peri as a character after two episodes in which she hasn't been much more than eye candy. Much of the credit for this has to go to Nicola Bryant, who finds a way of giving her scenes with Kate O'Mara's Rani a sexual tension which is nowhere in the script, but which makes those scenes one of the highlights of the episode, and makes the episode historically important in the subtext Bryant would bring to the character from then on (gleefully encouraged by Brett). But Peri is also shown as the Doctor's physical peer, as she is able to successfully restrain him when she thinks he is attacking her. This scene has its detractors, who feel that a human getting the better of the Doctor makes him look weak, but what do they expect Brett to do? Strangle Peri? Spin her on his shoulders as if he were the Mountain Mauler of Montana? No, it's absolutely the right decision to have the Doctor escape by persuading Peri to trust him. And Brett's patient, gentle explanation to Peri is just sufficiently too patient, too gentle that, again, he seems a little condescending. He may be the one in the armlock, but it seems as if he's trying to avoid further violence for Peri's benefit, and not his own. The resolution of this scene, with Brett inviting Bryant to feel for his pulses, is shockingly intimate for children's television, an intimacy heightened by the decision to shoot in close-up. You can see why French & Saunders would choose to parody the scene by drawing parallels with Bob Peck and Joanne Whalley in Edge of Darkness (even if this did lead to the bizarre 'Peri is a ghost' theory gaining traction in some sections of fandom). 

These are all great things, and foreshadow even better things to come, but the episode still has some telltale signs that we're going through a rough patch. The Tetraps are a vast improvement on the Nimon as far as monster costumes go, but after an impressive first appearance you start to notice the differences between the one good costume and the ones that are only going to be used in group shots (though at least everyone is believing in their bubble wrap, which helps a great deal). The Lakertyans are one of the wettest alien races we've met for a while, effectively being terrorised by the sci-fi-equivalent of a bully with a beehive and a stick, and their guns which shoot glitter seem more suited to the Movellans' disco armada than to 1985, and things aren't helped by the fact that Donald Pickering has very little chemistry with Brett, such that his Beyus, who should come across as heroic, instead feels pompous and self-important. 

Also, as you can probably tell from the fact so much of what I praise in this episode is based on the decisions made by performers, we are still dealing with a Pip 'n' Jane script. Definitely one of the better ones, but a Pip and Jane Baker joint nonetheless, with the usual attendant strengths and weaknesses in terms of ideas versus dialogue. Indeed, Brett performs a vital piece of alchemy on the latter, choosing to deliver the malformed proverbs with which Pip and Jane saddle the Doctor to indicate his post-regenerative amnesia less as mistakes than as Wildean paradoxes which ironically reveal their true meaning. 

Which is, on the whole, not a bad way to look at this episode: a pedestrian, programmatic affair enlivened by performances from O'Mara, Bryant and Brett which are, respectively, a camp pleasure, a surprising delight and a disturbing revelation. Though some people see this as one of 'the silly stories' before the Cartmel Masterplan kicks in and the Doctor gets serious (a reading which is also unfair on the other two serials usually classed as 'silly', but we'll get to them presently), the fact is that all the things that are going to be developed throughout this era of the show are already present. Peri is only going to get queerer (or at least as queer as children's television will allow her to be), and as the Sixth Doctor Brett is only going to get more intimidatingly alien. The difference will be that, as the seasons progress, Cartmel will bring on more and more new writers interested in writing for this new set-up, and as Brett's performance brings viewers back to the show during an unprecedentedly chaotic time for the BBC, they start getting the budget to match. The story everyone tells about Andrew Cartmel is of him being given the job of Script Editor after telling Nathan-Turner he wanted 'to bring down the government', but the fact is that by the end of his tenure this would seem, if anything, to have been setting his sights rather low. 

Wednesday, 9 November 2022

Oh won't you come on back to the War (on Nostalgia)?

 ...but I know what some of you are thinking. 'All this stuff about horror movies with Timelords in is fun but aren't you supposed to be engaged in some kind of War on Nostalgia, AJ? KCACO isn't going to exorcise itself, you know...'


And you're right, but don't forget that arriving at the realisation that undoing this knot of toxic nostalgia should be my current artistic focus was not a straightforward process. The idea of the KCACO poster's re-emergence having trapped us in some kind of weird timebreak was literally something which emerged here in the parentheses of what was simply intended to be a reflection on the final episode of Sapphire & Steel. Fittingly, an exploration of past media pointed to the dangers of cosy nostalgia. 

Well, something rather like that appears to have happened again, in that I seem to have hit on a key approach to how to fight it in the course of - well, writing about horror films with Doctor Who actors in them. One of the things that I notice whenever I log into this site to do another entry is the simple statistical fact that the first Timelords of Terror entry did significantly better than any of the subsequent ones, even taking into account that the first instalment of any series will usually do better than the others. And I think that's because that entry contains a genuine touch of magic, in the form of the long paragraph towards the end in which I imagine an alternate universe in which Andrew Cartmel replaces Eric Saward as Script Editor a couple of years early and is able to implement his fabled Masterplan in full, leading to Lungbarrow being made as television rather than a novel and a British public reassessing its commitment to reproductive futurism in the light of learning about looms. I got a bit carried away writing that bit, and not just because the medication started kicking in. It had that tuning fork ring of something significant, which I think was this: if the toxic nostalgia represented by KCACO has trapped us in a reality based on a false past in which the 'Keep Calm and Carry On' poster becomes part of our cultural memory of the Second World War despite never in fact getting beyond the design stage, one way to resist that toxic nostalgia is to rewrite the past deliberately based on the future that we want to live in. 


And if that feels appropriate, perhaps that's because in itself it represents an obvious development of the work done in Secrecy's Jurisdiction. It is the conceit of that work that it is an account of an alternate, shadow Britain, a twisted mirror of our most Normal of Islands' extremely rational and sensible politics. Admittedly this is largely because if I describe it as a 100% accurate description of what's really been going on I leave myself open to accusations of insanity or, worse, libel, but it's a place to start. And if you've been using this alternate universe approach for divinatory purposes, as a scrying mirror in which to arrive at truths about our current situation - why not adapt that approach to purposes of enchantment, instead? So one aspect of the KCACO project will be along these lines: poems written from the perspective of someone living in that better world where Prince Dai transitioned and dated Freddie Mercury, Britain became a Republic and the best Doctor Who story of all time, 'Jubilee', got the 'Power of the Doctor' treatment in 2003. A world where an old poster discovered in a bulk box of books bought at auction sold a few copies in Alnwick but never caught on. Hell, a world where His Dark Materials became a much bigger deal than those wizard nonce books, because a more sexually mature and open culture would realise you would have to have something deeply wrong with you to make the representatives of transformative power in your universe part of the same system that gave us Bash Camps


Maybe it's also because I went to Glasgow recently, and reread 1982, Janine, and am thinking a lot about Alasdair Gray's injunction to 'work as if you live in the early days of a better nation'. You can feel that way in Glasgow, but you can't in England these days, where every headline serves to remind you that we seem to have run out of road. And so, if there is to be any kind of national renewal, if we are to find some way of backing ourselves out of the nightmarish cul-de-sac we seem to have gotten ourselves into, that has to begin in the imagination, and it has to begin with something other than trollstalgic cliches about wartime grit or taking back control. And so in a way, you see, despite being the author of a book called England is the Enemy, the eventual goal of my project will be a more interesting, exciting country, one that no longer hides from but embraces the future. If Secrecy's Jurisdiction was about wrapping the corpse of Jimmy Savile like an albatross around the neck of the establishment that enabled him, the KCACO project is about kicking that establishment offstage once and for all and letting new dreams emerge from the margins, from the weirdos, from the stuff that isn't taken seriously.  It is, in fact, in a way which surprises me as much as anyone else, a kind of defence of the realm.